The Post Before I See “The Last Jedi”

the-last-jedi-theatrical-blogI’ve been meaning to write countless articles about my feelings during these weeks leading up to “Star Wars: The Last Jedi,” but I just never wrote them. I’d think about writing something, and it would spin into anxiety, so I stayed away from this blog.  To be honest, I wasn’t sure I was even going to see it.

After my disappointment with “The Force Awakens” and its treatment of my three favorite characters of all time, I was not looking forward to visiting that world again. I walked out of TFA feeling no joy and being terribly mad at Harrison Ford for what I thought was his price to return to the film. JJ Abrams has tried to take credit for the story point, but I don’t really think it’s all him.  I wanted to love the movie, but I just don’t. It traded the happiness of my characters for a repeat of the bad guys, and I just didn’t enjoy it.

I went into TFA without reading any spoilers at all, and was devastated. I told myself I’d read every spoiler I could get my hands on in order to prepare myself for TLJ and for the most part I have. I watched all the trailers. Listened to lots of podcasts. Read theories on Reddit. Then came this week, when the reviews started to come out, and I froze. I know that reviews tend to spoil major plot points (I wish they wouldn’t do that), so I have actually decided to stay away from them. All I do know is that reactions are mixed. Critics seem to mostly love it, and fans seem to be split 50/50.

I will know in about three hours how I feel about the movie.

I am torn. The first thing I said to anyone who would listen when TFA ended was that they had better not kill off Luke in the next movie. Now that we’re almost there, I am fairly certain that that is exactly what will happen. It’s almost enough to make me wait for the DVD release. Except, I love Luke. Luke was/is me. I need to be there to see his last appearance on screen.

This is not a spoiler. I’ve read nothing. If I am wrong,  then that’s another thing for me to worry about. But if they do kill him off, it will be sort of a release for me. Carrie won’t be in the final film as Leia. If Luke’s gone, and Han, then I have no reason to continue to watch these films. (I almost wrote punish myself…). I can call it a day with this one and let the new Star Wars move on without me.

If you’ve watched “The Last Jedi” already, and you enjoyed it, I am happy for you. All I have right now is dread. I hope it’s not as heartbreaking as I am anticipating.

May the Force be with You.

RSM

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About rocketsciencemom
I am a rocket scientist in my day job, and a mother of two all the time. I'm a pop culture addict and amateur artist in my spare time. My typical preferences tend toward sci-fi and fantasy genres but I love a good drama or comedy. Reading the blogs of fellow Lost fans over the years has motivated me to finally write my own. All drawings and images on this blog are property of RocketScienceMom

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